this is who I am. just me.
I am defined by many different things. I am defined my by faith. My love for the human spirit. Living to see the bright side of things, and keep my glass half-full. To express all of the joy I have inside by smiling constantly. By being a hard worker and a great employee. Giving my patients the compassion and care they need. By hoping that some day, everything will make sense and I will look back with zero regrets. The drive inside me to be liked, to be loved, and to love in return. Being a list maker with all things in my life, and feeling organized when I can write down the things I am feeling. Being a person that falls hard and falls fast. Trusting with all my heart and soul. Being faithful and dedicated. Having a life that is honorable. Working harder to make every day better than the one before. Being passionate about so many things. I am a night owl and an insomniac. I would love to just sit around and do nothing all day… just spend time at the house eating oreos and milk, watching movie after movie. I have a love for baking that only my mom can understand. I enjoy cooking, and making up new recipes as I go. I am hypocrite and I try to own up to it, but its often hard to own up to. I like it when people pay for dinner, dates, etc, but I almost always feel so guilty they are spending money on me – I often pay for the next date. I am open about myself, sometimes too much, and it bites me in the butt later. I have made so many mistakes, but I feel that I learn from each and every one, so they end up being worth it in the end. I am a positive person and always hope for the better. I feel that people don’t hear enough good things every day, and I will do what I can to compliment someone any time I can. I am scared to watch the news 99% of the time, because I am afraid of what our society has done to ruin what God’s has supplied us with. I see God’s miracles in things from the inner workings of the human body, to the details in a flower, to the amazingness of seeing a rainbow of colors created in the sky after it rains. I see tragedy and sadness every day at work, but try and see the light at the end of the tunnel. I believe that psychiatrists often just a sounding board for someone to voice their feelings without judgment, and sometimes all a person needs to do is open up and share. I believe that people rush into marriage too quickly these days, and that our high divorce rates could be significantly lowered if people stopped focusing on the finish line, and paid more attention to the journey in their relationship. I am a person who believes that marriage is sacred, and divorce should never be an option from the beginning. I believe that you fight for what you want, and if you are passionate about something, you will go out of your way to get it or see it or feel it. I believe you can’t always get what you want, no matter how hard you try. Sometimes it’s just not in the cards for you. I am really hard on myself and I am my own worst critic. I strive to be great, and get upset with myself when I don’t achieve my goals. I shut down and become very guarded when I am feeling vulnerable or judged. I want to be a great nurse, more than anything, I want to be that one that everyone goes to, because she works hard and has great experience and knowledge. I know its in my blood to do great things – I come from a long line of successful nurses and carpenters and passionate hard workers. I believe that writing is therapeutic. I believe that you shouldn’t always say what you are thinking, and imagine about what will happen when it comes out. I remind myself that I can never take back spoken words, so I try to be careful to say the right things. I am dyslexic, and it is the worst when I am sleep deprived or nervous. I have many nicknames people have given me over the years… Belle, MPAL, Woowa, suga, witch, babe, LB, elle, Nurse Keeney, and many others… but my least favorite has been “Princess.” Bleh! I hate being called a princess. Black is my favorite color. Not because it is grim and depressing, but because I can mix it with any color in the rainbow, and it is a complimentary color of clothing on just about everyone. I dislike pastel colors, particularly purple, except around Easter time. I love diamonds and old fashioned jewelry, and am picky about how much jewelry I wear. I sleep with a heating pad every pretty much every night to relax my muscles, and because I can only sleep when I am warm. Whenever I get to sleep next to someone, I sleep so soundly and wake up refreshed. That is one reason why I am excited to get married – fall asleep and wake up every day with someone beside me. I dream of the future often, and look forward to the journey of becoming a girlfriend, wife, mother, aunt, and someday a grandma. I know that when I die, I will go to heaven and see my Maker and my Grandpa Hill. I am not afraid to die, although I would hope it is many many years away, while I am old and sleeping in my bed at home. I loved my grandpa Hill with everything I have, and I still love him more and more as the days go on. He was a phenomenal man, and largely because of his example, I have high standards for my life, and aim for the best. My language of love is touch. I feel emotions stronger when I am able to reach out and touch someone, old a hand, settle into the crook of someone’s neck, or even just hug them. It is my happy place. I love being in love. If its with my mom’s puppy, my family, a girl friend, friends or a boy… Love is so powerful, and I have been blessed beyond belief to experience myself.
I am stubborn but flexible. I am outgoing and shy at the same time. I am confident but insecure. I am strong and weak. I openly love but I am guarded. I am lazy but adventurous. I have goals and dreams that will never come to pass, but I have hope. I am determined but unmotivated. I am generous but selfish. I care but I am indifferent.
I am laura anne keeney.
