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… I am not sure where to begin. I have written and erased ten first lines to this blog, and I am still lost on exactly what I want to say or where I want to go with this. Ashley took the line “Why blog?” and I can’t plaigarize a teacher and get away with it…

It has been years since I have written all of my feelings down on paper in my journal. This blog is going to be my electronic version of the pink journal my mother gave me in High School after my “first love” broke my heart. I used that little book for every possible emotion and occasion that would come up. Reality or dream-world, that journal was my way to  vent what I didn’t have the courage to admit or say aloud, and write down the hopes and dreams I had for my future.

I find it intruiging how people are able to express themselves. Some paint, some work out, some write, sone sing, some fight, and the list goes on. I have always been a list-maker, and I have found over the past few months that the way I am able to express myself (whether I am conscious of it or not), is through words. Once my best friend started blogging, I started getting this feeling of excitement and had those faint memories of years back, when I would just be lost in a quickly filling blank page and a pen.

Now, I am not the best at writing. I don’t claim to be any good at this. I have read other people’s blogs and notes on Facebook, and I am envious of how they can put together these amazing stories and word everything so well. I am my most clear during the night hours, so if I ever blog at night, know that those are my best pieces… no joke. I find sometimes after I am written an email at work (night shift at the hospital), I will go back and read it the next day, and barely recognize myself in the typed words. I wish I was like that 24/7, but I guess my witty-worded self only comes out when nobody can see.

I am excited for this new journey I am embarking on with the blog, and am curious as to how this will be worked into my life. I am hopeful that I will get that old spark back for writing.If I could get anything out of this experience, I am hoping I may be able to touch a person’s life, even if only one. I have learned so much over the years, and I hope that I may be able to inspire someone with my life stories.

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